1. the first site I searched said it was agoraphobia and this could be a response to a traumatic event such as a bereave­ment job loss or divorce
  1. the first doctor I saw said I was stuck in a loop
  2. your body responds hence the cramps the sweating the nausea
  3. you notice this and that makes you panic even more
  4. your body responds
  5. and so on
  6. she put me on propranolol
  7. said it would break the loop
  8. I said that I’d give it a go asked about the side effects
  9. replaced the chair
  10. it was wet from my coat still wet from the rain
  11. and planned another way to leave